While the usual end of year period means lots of celebrations and parties, I haven't celebrated as much as I could. I have missed 3 gatherings to date, and gave up a potential one, because of.... you guessed it... uni apps — again.
It's always like that. Mostly because of the procrastinator in me, but also because of the so many things I wanna do. I'm literally being attacked on all fronts. Firstly, I'm racing to spit out as much as I can for applications, and to give it as much as I can think of. (Frankly I don't believe time is the key here, but more of inspiration. My best works always come by inspiration and never as a methodological progression towards perfectness.) I really hope I can get into MIT. There's too much happening (and will happen) there to miss.
Next is photography. According to Jonathan Danker, I've definitely to lots to practice for. And I can see it for myself too. I mean, he's only 3 years into photography (3 years professional or not I dunno. I'd like to think he started from scratch 3 years ago, since it gives me more motivation) and he's making awesome shots (by my standards that is). I'm already just past 1.5 years, and am still doing really terribly at photography (again personal standards. Being very harsh on yourself always helps you improve). I really should go out more like what one of my friends is doing, but I don't know what to do at the moment, not to mention I'm hard pressed for time,
Next is anime. Yes. I'm neglecting my usual hours of watching. I haven't completed a series in this entire month, and only completed 2 series last month (one of which was started the month before). This is not good, since I'm intending to go to Akiba during our trip to Japan, and that means I need to keep up, and to keep more current. Figruines released also follow the animes released (with an understandable lag of course) and so I can't afford to fall too far behind. One I regret is Lucky Star. I can't find any figurines or nendoroids of Konata, because that anime is too old in that sense. Hopefully Akiba will give some relief. But yet, I'm short of time AND money now.
These 3 are currently big in my life, with the 4th also almost as important for this period. My love for science and projects. My portable charger is not performing as well as I had intended and I need to really sort things out. Unfortunately this will take alot of time as I try to find a way to not take apart the entire device and reconstruct from scratch. Not to mention that I soon need to reignite my "intelligence" that army extinguished (yes thanks alot). I'm kind of falling behind in IQ, but mostly noticable in mathematics, and less so in physics and chemistry. My memorised facts have gone down the drain including Pi, which I now slip up a bit more often than I used to, and I've forgotten the constants which I used to memorise: elementary charge, mole, gravitational constant, permittivity, and permeability, among others I can't even remember the names.
Of course, parties are also another front which I'm being attacked from. I really wish to go for them, but I just can't risk not being able to complete my apps. I'm making progress at home thankfully, and taking short outings to accomplish more. (managed to get myself a PSP, and went to an end of year sale at KKnM) and at home itself, I finally sealed one out of the four display cupboards so that they'll be dust free for several years.
Oh yes, lastly, I've added my cupboard lighting (over year old now) project to the Projects section. Finally, you might say, yes. Finally, for me too! I really wanted to put it up. I finally got round to it.
I suppose I never feel satisfied at the end of the day if I can't list my accomplishments for that day and feel good about it. I have, like one of my friends say he has too, a feeling that I'm lacking behind others if I don't get a good day of achievements. Not because it means I can't use it for CV or stuff, it's already too late now, but because I know life is short, and I just don't want to use it doing things that I know I could have not done and still didn't mind. I'm glad that I really want to maximise my life at this young age, because then I'll end up maximising it more than those who realise this later.